Today is Palm Sunday and I am in need of confession. I have been praying for the Lord of my life to help me in my employment. I am a nurse and as I am getting older the job is getting harder. With the new health care reform measures and the worsening financial situation across the country, I am being forced to take much larger work assignments while, simultaneously, I am weakening with age. The two do not mix well. So, I commenced praying to get some answers to my dilemma.
A couple of months ago, hospital management combined two departments that were once separate into one unit under the same manager. The manager then began to assign the two separate staffs of nurses to cover for one another. Both units are specialty units requiring differing skills and knowledge bases for nursing care of the patients. I was not happy. The first time I was assigned to the other unit it was extremely busy and I really thought I would be a “fish out of water”. It turned out that the nurses on the other unit assigned me patients I could easily handle and I did unit secretarial duties, too. It was a good day. Last evening I was required to cross over to the other unit again. I went there grumbling that I wasn’t trained to be there, that I wasn’t good with this type patient, etc etc. The nurses were very sympathetic. They told me they would not like to cross over to my unit, either, and that if I just wanted to work as a nurses’ aide, they’d take all the patients. They were so accommodating that I shut up and took my assignment. As the evening progressed and I spent 8 hours with these wonderful nurses, I felt ashamed that I had been so rebellious.
The real shame came, however, after I got home and realized that I had had one of the easiest evenings of work in months. Hadn’t I asked God for this? I asked him to help me be able to handle my workload. He had given me a much lighter load, and with congenial co-workers as a bonus. I had almost missed it in my grumbling. Today I wasn’t needed at the hospital at all. When this happens, I still get full-time benefits, but I’m not working full-time. You can’t get a lighter workload than that. He, who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us (Ephesians 3:20) did just that for me. I almost didn’t recognize it. Forgive me, Lord, and thank you!
Riding into Jerusalem with the King of Kings,