Mountains can immobilize

I struggled this morning with what to put here. Nothing seemed to be right. I am committed to memorizing the book of Colossians this year. I am doing it with about 900 people on the Facebook page Colossians in a Year. We commit 2 verses of Colossians to memory per week. It is very difficult for me and because of the difficulty it takes a lot of time out of my day to do it. I am simultaneously working on 3 other projects. One is this blog post, another is a research project for the hospital I work for, and one is submitting a grant proposal to my state department of health. All these are additional projects taken on over and above my full-time job, church and family relationships.

So this morning I was staring into space. Do you ever get those times when you have so much to do that you do nothing because mountains stand before you and you just can not take that first step? That’s where I was 40 minutes ago. I prayed and asked God to help me. “You know Scripture is the most important,” He said to me out of the depths of my spirit.”If you have that, all else will come.” I know that, but I wasn’t obeying that. He is my lens. All else becomes very clear when my lens is polished so…I just spent the past half hour working on Colossians 2:1-10. The new verses that I began yesterday for this week are Colossians 2:9-1o

9 For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, 10 and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority.

Spending time…not being distracted…keeping my focus on Christ “I have all the riches of complete understanding” (Col 2:3)….getting my marching orders…receiving discipline….adjusting my attitude…being reminded of His grace.

Intimacy was the focus of my doctoral dissertation. A definition of intimacy is a close, familiar, and usually affectionate or loving personal relationship with another. Intimacy is an interesting phenomenon. If you seek it and strive for it, it eludes you. It comes as you are involved with another, most likely working together on some task entirely unrelated to relationship-building, suddenly and unexpectedly just spending time together, you realize you are becoming close. I have been studying Colossians every day since my New Year’s resolution January 1. Some days it consumes the better part of an hour in the morning. I mean, I am intense. I expected this to be difficult and it is. What I didn’t expect was the intimacy with Christ. Tears stream from my eyes, down my cheek as I say

[Jesus] is the image of the invisible God,

the firstborn over all creation,

For in Him all things were created,

things in heaven and on earth,

visible and invisible,

whether thrones or powers, or rulers or authorities,

all things have been created through him and for Him

He is over all things

and in Him all things hold together

He is the head of the body, the church

He is the beginning, and the firstborn from the dead

so that in all things He might have the supremacy!      Colossians 1:15-18

So now I am ready to move mountains. I hope this has been helpful to you. It has been helpful to me. Perhaps that is why I write here, it helps me by forcing me to think something through. You know, come to think of it, when I first began this, I just wanted to have a voice. What I didn’t know is that I would also get friendships and that those friendships would take me far beyond anywhere I could go on my own. I didn’t know I would get to know your hearts and your struggles and that my heart would join with yours. I didn’t plan on that. It just happened.

Living and loving on this Tuesday because He first loved me,

Dawn

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6 comments on “Mountains can immobilize

  1. a very powerful post… and lovely… we find our rest in Him!
    I love your mountain photo! Such majesty!

    ~my friend shared this with me today… I pass it on
    “On the highest level, seeking God is an action born of love. It is not a matter only of discipline, it is first an awakening of desire. It is not a question of sacrifice but of the passions stirred by unrelenting love.”
    ~Francis Frangipane

    Blessings to you and grace

    • Dear, dear Susan,

      Thank you SO VERY much for the words of Francis Frangipane. It sums up, in such a lovely way, exactly how I feel. I am going to make a card using these words some day.

      You are precious, Susan!

  2. Dawn, I have a lot of mountains that need to be moved (or leveled), and I must confess, I usually walk away from them because I don’t know what to do with them. Sometimes, it’s just “stuff.” Irritating, but not a “biggie” in life. Then, there are those mountains that rise up on the horizon of the soul. It’s THOSE that are the biggies. We make a decision to seek God at the deepest level, and as we get into the journey, we find what looks like impossible mountains that either need to be climbed or removed. It is in those times that we find the quote above to be true: Is it matter of discipline and sacrifice, or is it a matter of love? You touched on something that is going on in my own soul right now, and I thank you for that. It’s been amazing how the Lord takes us through these things with the help of Scripture, bloggie friends, etc. Who knew????

    • Dear Cora,

      It’s so funny how your post describes my day. I am chuckling as I type. I got up early and got my morning things done before 10 am so that I could branch out. I printed out a bunch of things for a 1 pm meeting, had a bit of lunch and then called my friend to tell her I was on my way to the meeting. She told me the meeting was at 9 am. I missed it. TIme wasted there again. I went to the hospital library to print out my research proposal and the library system would not connect with my MAC so I couldn’t print. ANother chunk of wasted time.I went to Human Resources to select my benefits for next year. I couldn’t figure out what the instructions meant so I had to stand in line to talk to a representative. More time wasted. Well, here I am. I ran a few errands with my husband and we had some seafood delight at our friends’ restaurant. I am waiting for a call to go to someone’s house to write up a grant. If she’s a night person I’m not going to be much help. I shut down after 9 pm. This “stuff” is very irritating, mole hills, reallly, but they are enough to immobilize at times. I felt like I was moving backwards today. Thanks for letting me know I am not alone.

      Bless you, Cora, for your faithful caring,
      Dawn

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