Today I am going to name all the things that are crushing me, beating me, disrespecting me and telling lies about me. Ann says if I don’t give thanks for ALL things, I am miscounting. I have not listed these hard, distasteful, uncomfortable things and, therefore, I am guilty of miscounting. Today I even the score.
#516 for patients who complain that nurses do not take care of them. Once groups of reasons can be collected, compiled and analyzed, hospital administrators will know how to care for patients from the patient perspective. This should more surely predict good patient satisfaction scores and, therefore, assure reimbursement for services rendered.
#517 for a manager who relieved me of my services before anything worse happened to me at the end of my career. I was unable to accept the danger I was in on my own cognizance and she provided the needed shove to safety.
#518 for people who have not disappointed me since I have left work. I didn’t think they’d care and they don’t. This experience has taught me what is most important in my life. I owe these people a debt of gratitude.
#519 for a real-life experience of the Milgram Experiment and the realization that I could administer shocks if told to do so, such knowledge is quite sobering.
#520 for the realization that my profession’s boundaries are defined by lawyers, judges, and politicians, not health care practitioners. I truly believed and taught others to believe we had an ethical foundation.
#522 that I do not know who thinks I did what I was accused of and who doesn’t. That way I treat everyone neutrally. It keeps me quietly cautious.
#523 that I had to go back to the “dreaded” hospital and get a few things. Picking up my nursing license I was told how wonderful I had been with the secretary’s daughter when she had her baby. She was looking forward to seeing me again in April. I didn’t tell her I wouldn’t be there.
#524 that health insurance is so expensive that my husband and I have been forced to find new ways to care for ourselves and no longer feel like slaves to a particular system. Investigation of the system is VERY en”light”ening. Caring for ourselves is no longer a burden.
#525 that losing my job meant finding myself and my family again. You miss a lot working EVERY weekend as I did. As a friend put it today in an e-mail “enjoy the days of freedom this nightmare has offered for you and Russ.” Now THAT is making lemonade out of lemons. This picture was taken Saturday. I NEVER saw my family on Saturday when I was working.
#526 that my mother can not remember things so she is not aware of what is happening and her husband agrees not to tell her.
#527 that my income is halved which forces me to cook more, drive less and be creative. We’ve settled into a sustainable rhythm over the past 6 weeks and we LOVE it. I wanted off the old merry-go-round, but couldn’t seem to manage it. Now I’m off and I wonder why I stayed so long.
#528 that I’ve been cut off from work circles. It has forced me to connect with new communities that I never would have ventured into in my “old” life.
#529 that God is not done with me yet. He still has something for me to do, but I’m not ready to do it yet. I am “in school” right now, learning to walk all over again.
All is grace at Ann’s,