So what happened as I gave thanks through the wasteland? Practically I was giving thanks for everything. I was making lists of things I was thankful for and I was beginning to use my camera to notice things that had escaped my appreciation in the busyness of life. I was also reading biographies of those who really made a difference for the Lord in the lives of people on this earth to see what made them able to make those differences. I memorized the book of Colossians and I began to attend to prayer more diligently. I.began.to.blog.
The whole year of 2011 as I worked in the wasteland, I blogged about it. I was able to analyze my work, get community opinion for strategies to try in it and received spiritual support as my soul was stretched beyond tolerance. My blog was the only place where I could lay out my issues. I could also write until I got my thoughts together clearly before I published. Since I don’t think well on my feet, I loved being able to re-write and edit till I got it right. Not much happened to me that year because I was not listening to God. He was telling me to leave the wasteland, but I insisted I could make the wasteland work. I couldn’t, but the time was not wasted because now I KNOW I couldn’t have changed things in the wasteland, only He could. He had other plans for me.
God has me in Meekness School. The school is founded on grace and teaches its students how to practice with quiet strength. Cora of http://www.hiddenrichesinsecretplaces.com said, “”Right isn’t always right, is it? Grace always fits, even in the hard places.” The end of December 2011, I named 2012 the Year of Grace. I am just beginning to learn what that means. I have had to overcome what St John of the Cross in his book Dark Night of the Soul called the lust of wrath
If one becomes irritated at the sins of others and “keeps watch on others with a kind of uneasy zeal” and the impulse becomes so great that they reprove them angrily, this wrath needs purged. What the Lord wants is meekness
Everything was becoming increasingly wrong in the wasteland and I became increasingly irritated. I tried to be self-controlled, but God had to remove me. On January 6, I flunked out of wasteland brainwashing and entered Meekness School. These past 5 months I have been learning how to fill my “new land” (my promised land) with good fill.
A thank list, a camera, a cyber-sphere of great friends, a loving, supportive family and the Word are reshaping the way I respond. I had all these in the wasteland, but I didn’t get it. There was so much wrong and so much injustice that I could not be quiet. I had to be removed. Overcoming the lust of wrath in a wasteland not fit for human habitation is like trying to stop drinking while tending bar. You are too enmeshed to problem solve. Once out of the wasteland, I could obey totally because there was no din. I have learned to be quiet. In the quiet, I can hear and I wait for His prompting and seek His timing for everything. God’s will is for a person to know what is right and to use that knowledge gracefully for the good of all. Cora said it well.
So, Dear Readers, I am filling in the land. I had a word from the Lord that confirmed this to me just this morning while reading Isaiah 40
4 Fill in the valleys,
and level the mountains and hills.
Straighten the curves,
and smooth out the rough places.
5 Then the glory of the Lord will be revealed,
and all people will see it together.
The Lord has spoken!”
“We spend our brief lives any way we choose, but we can spend them only once.” ~ Moishe Rosen
From The Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotions by Arthur Bennett
I thank Thee for the patience that has borne with me so long,
and for the grace that now makes me willing to be Thine.
O unite me to Thyself with inseparable bonds,
that nothing may ever draw me back from Thee, my Lord, my Savior.
Walking with Him Wednesday,