In his book, In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day, Mark Batterson tells me that opportunities often look like insurmountable obstacles. Sometimes it takes a setback to get us to go where God wants us to go (stubborn Israelites that we are). A setback we perceive as a problem may be the gateway to the opportunity of a lifetime! On the heels of this reading, I see what Andrea Dawn says in her blog
Another week under my belt at work and things are coming along more smoothly. At least until they throw something new at me again, which I am pretty sure will happen for some time to come. That’s okay though, because when I am fully trained and it comes as naturally as breathing, I will LOVE it.
Yes! Everything thrown at me right now at my new job is hard and difficult and unwieldy because it is unfamiliar. It is fraught with problems because I don’t know how to deal with the logistics of the job yet. It’s not quite like I am in a pit with a lion on a snowy day, but it is uncomfortable. It is full of obstacles because I don’t know the steps and the not knowing stops me from moving forward smoothly, confidently and with ease. But if I weren’t forced to struggle, if I didn’t have to go slow and pattern myself, if I weren’t willing to look foolish and stupid over and over again, I would not earn the confidence of those who entrusted this job to me and, thereby, the right to do it. They hired me because they believed in me. They believed I could endure months of ineptitude and become a polished member of the triage team. They have set me at the gateway to an opportunity just suited to one with years of health care experience, but one who can no longer run up and down the hallways of a hospital nor lift the increasingly-heavy members of the US population. I am coming to the age where my hands can no longer palpate the vein or hold the writhing child still. My eyes can no longer see the small print on the vials of medications and my ears can no longer hear the faint heart sounds emitted through an ordinary stethoscope. I can, however, problem-solve, coordinate and triage. I can listen, discern and discuss. My superiors value my experience. They are paying for what I KNOW. I will, through the grace of God, prevail; and when I do, I will be polished and I will LOVE this job!
So this Monday, I am thankful for these obstacles of my job refining me to be useful for His purposes:
#801 each of three identical screens that have different rules for their use. Presently I don’t know how to use them depending on how I go to them from home because I don’t understand what the differences are according to the route from home taken. Is this clear? (as mud, yes?)
#802 not knowing who is in charge of what so I know who to notify about what. This agency covers 13 counties!
#803 not having a system to remember 10 things at once.
#804 a preceptor who has to do everything herself and does not give me hands-on practice time unless she is called away from her desk.
#805 each insurance company covering things differently and not yet knowing what the red flags are for each company.
#807 a memory not quite as sharp as it once was and has to have lots of repetitions to cement new information into it.
#808 my temperament that hates to feel foolish. There is no way I can avoid it in this situation.
#809 my lack of: prayer, dependence on Him and death to self.
Won’t you please pray for me…please!?
Posting this before I go to the phones this Multitudes on Monday,