I have just begun to read the book Fully Alive by Ken Davis. In it he describes his life as a smoldering ember. He was living, but “under the radar”, merely marking time, going through the motions. He described this time as living like a smoldering ember. I thought about this a long time. and I think that was where I had been for the past couple of years. I was in a rut. I was just doing the next programmed thing. I was exhausted, moving purely in some sort of centrifical force in a well-worn circular path from home to work and back. I tried to break free–to do other things–but they were all carefully placed around and between the circle of duty. This circle was suffocating, it was NOT a circle of life. In the circle there was no air, no thought, no creativity, no voice…only duty, degradation and drowning. The circular motion was caused by the negative pressure of a drain in which I spun downward and could see no way to escape. Every revolution leading me closer to the sewer until…one day
I was plunged out of the spiral, spewed out into open air and landed in an unknown place. In that unknown place there was no schedule, no requirements, no duty. I was free. The date was January 6, 2012. I spent the next 8 months there. The Holy Spirit came and gently blew across the smoldering embers and eventually I got my fire back. Some of you traveled those months with me. This Monday I put you at the top of my gratitude list. This Monday, October 1, 2012, I am thankful for
#823 all who walked with me through the time of smoldering embers and helped me back to living fully.
#824 those who pray. Together we are a powerful force in this sinful world.
#825 the Holy Spirit who bears witness with my spirit to comfort and keep me, and who blew across the smoldering embers to ignite the flames of passion in my life again.
#827 shared time with children and grandchildren – enjoying the fruits of the spring and summer of my life.
#828 a great place to work at the end of my working days.
#829 a shared faith at work in the one who loves our patients the most.
#830 a shared vision for caring for our patients because of Jesus.
#831 each and every day of freedom.
#832 warnings to prepare for days ahead where freedom may not be the norm.
#833 improving health and strength.
#834 a good earthly doctor who is also a friend.
#835 the fellowship of His sufferings. I am thankful for those willing to reach out and share such times so we have real fellowship and do not feel alone.
#836 cool nights and warm covers (ah, I must leave them and get about my day, Dear Friends).
With the Multitudes at Ann’s,